i know i said a lot
when we first met
rules and beliefs
that i thought it was important
to be upfront about
so you knew what you were getting
like if you can’t love me like this
then you won’t want to stay
and we can just cut our losses
like if you can’t accept me as i am
then it’s a you problem,
and it’s not my fault
but most of it was bullshit
to protect myself from getting hurt
but you stayed
you asked me to grow
except i wasn’t ready
yet you still waited
more patience than i’d ever known before
you waited and forgave me for all my fuck ups
when i got scared that you were too close
and i loved you too much
and that if i didn’t end it
we’d both come out the other end a total mess
eventually though i realised it was time
to grow or give up
and i was never one for giving up